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please please please [Jan. 24th, 2007|06:52 pm]
[mood |melancholymelancholy]
[music |wilco]

i hate my life.
i hate hate hate it.
i hate myself.
i do terrible things.
just like i did in tenth grade.
i am in college.
i need to stop doing this to myself.
i need to stop doing this to everyone else.

i need help.



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nothing of interest [Dec. 12th, 2006|06:54 pm]
[mood |coldcold]
[music |the neutral milk hotel]

life suckkkksss.
DAAP blowsss.
cifton is a bitchhh.
people are annoying me.
and my hair is too short
and i want to dye it RIGHTFUCKINGNOW
and i canttttt.

i have to start painting again....
it's like never ending.

laterrrr daysss.


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thursdays are lame [Aug. 11th, 2006|10:55 am]
[mood |cynicalcynical]
[music |jenny lewis--rise up with fists]

so yesterday started off good.
i mean really it did.
i went to this pool in newport to see andrew and i got to be a lifeguard because andrew is the head one and said i could be.
so i got to blow the whistle and yell at little kids, and let me just tell you i am freaking AWESOME at that.
anyways im like standing there screaming "NO GAINERS!" when this HUGE lightening bolt comes out of the sky.
the pool closed annnnddd i WAITED A WHOLE FREAKING HOUR in traffic to get home.
and i accidently kept andrews whistle.
and we were supposed to hang out later but he got too busy.
so basically i layed around all night when i could have gone out.
or at least gone to michelles and tried to make her feel better.

so im not waiting around tonight. if its my last day off before i work twenty hours this weekend, it better be hella good.

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i hit a fifty eight [Aug. 9th, 2006|02:01 pm]
[mood |hothot]
[music |stolen--dashbord confessional]

so i went golfing yesterday.
and it was quite an experience.
like i've never ever ever golfed before. so i get there and im wearing flip flops and im like okay so um, what do i now? and im like swinging the club around you know and everyone was kind of watching me like thinking to themselves, "what the hell is this little blonde girl wearing short shorts and flip flops doing?"
and andrew was like "well nikki you take the club and you hit the ball with it"
it was so pathetic. i mean at first i couldnt even the drive the freaking ball.
i kept missing.
its like helllooo how hard is it to freaking hit the ball on a tee with a hella big golf club?
well its hard.
but i didnt do too bad according to my dear friend andrew.
and i actually had fun.
and i actually had pictures.
but andrew hasnt given them to me. because he claims he looks high in every single one.


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boys are so evil. [Aug. 8th, 2006|10:09 am]
[mood |confusedconfused]
[music |iron and wine]

hey losers.

my life has sucked x 2039453905.

basically it's sucked pretty bad.
and i'm not happy with that outcome you know what i'm saying?
in other words, i HATE boys right now.
like i completely loathe them.
and i wish they would stop playing games.
because i've been building myself up
and i just got knocked all the way to the bottom.

okay now i'm just rambling.
and a fucking bird just flew into my window.
i hope it's okay....


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it has been too long. [Jul. 31st, 2006|11:35 pm]
[mood |indifferentindifferent]
[music |deathcab for cutie--we looked like giants]

whats up punks?
my god it has been farrr tooo longgg.
i mean its been over a year.
and its all myspace's fault.
well fuckkk myspace.
because its pissing me off right now.
so whats been happening in my life right now...
i got accepted into uc for photojournalism so i'll be in clifton come september...SWEEET. with gunshots and muggings and the occasional drive by. no really i love love love clifton.
i broke up with cory which very nearly broke my heart. but i think i may be able to get on with my life.
though it also may take for frickin everrr.
picture of me? why yes, i will show you.
wow i look enormous i know. 
but at least im not horribly ugly you know what i mean?
hmm...maybe i'll actually keep up with this.

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spring is my home season [Apr. 7th, 2005|03:11 pm]
[mood |optimisticoptimistic]
[music |Pedro the Lion]

ahhh, it's been so long my lovlies. how have you're lives been going? sorry its been so long. i promise that i have in fact missed you. so much.

my life has been going well. michelle and i are excited for prom. we're gonig tanning today because that's what ya do when you go to prom. and it will be 7 months with cory soon. good. because seven is my lucky number. this new kid nathan started going to our school but he is REALLY annoying and he never leaves me alone. or michelle alone. and he calls himself a "valley goth" but he could call himself napoleon dynamite for all i care and i still wouldn't like him any better. gym class started. now there's an embarrassment. i hate it. weezer's coming out with a new cd. i'm so stoked for that one.

i think that's about it. i think. oh, and i get my lisence soon!

now you're caught up.

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twO [Mar. 19th, 2005|05:01 pm]
[mood |cheerfulcheerful]
[music |Self Against City --Speechless]

she never sleeps...

yeah. i'm going against my better judgment and going to see the ring two.

for better or worse.

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(no subject) [Mar. 17th, 2005|04:53 pm]
[mood |uncomfortableuncomfortable]
[music |The Used --all that i've got]

and it will be more like a SONG
and less like its .m.a.t.h.
if you pull on my hair, and bite me like that
and the truth is that /i/ /c/a/n/'/t/ /h/a/r/d/l/y/ /w/a/i/t/
and i don't care if we stay up too late
don't answer the phone

going to the mall after school I'm thinking…
continue ruining my life?
Wait for things to take a turn for better or worse?
I suppose I'll let everything FLOW…
That seems like the .:logical:. answer…
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play me some love [Mar. 3rd, 2005|03:08 pm]
[mood |sicksick]
[music |muse]

i look at you all, see the love in you sleeping.

.............while my guitar gently weeps

i look at the floor and i see it needs sweeping
....still my guitar gently weeps

i don't know why nobody told you
how to unfold your love

i don't know how, someone conrtolled you
they bought and sold you

i looke at the world, see the love in it sleeping
......while my gutiar gently weeps......

i feel like i'm in fucking hollywood
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